Every prison has among its inmates a head honcho called The Big Face. The term
originally derives from the time when notorious criminals had their faces plastered on
"Wanted" posters. Nowadays, it is reserved for the most feared and ferocious prisoner in
a jail. Our Big Face was an old-style gangland boss coming towards the end of a lifer's
tariff for a string of revenge killings. As the old wild west saying has it, he was not
a man to go to the well with. His unexpected arrival at our fellowship group made
several people distinctly nervous, not least the speaker.
I began my address by saying that this psalm had made a great impact on me throughout my
prison journey. I had come to believe that it might have a great message for anyone
suffering "in the depths". I mentioned that it was not only my favourite psalm; it also
happened to be the favourite psalm of Augustine, Luther and Calvin. The Big Face nodded
gravely at this.
Towards the end of my exegesis, I noticed that The Big Face was visibly moved. Tears
were trickling down his cheeks as he listened in deep concentration. As I finished with
a prayer, he joined in with a booming "Amen". A few moments later, he drew me aside.
"Jonno, that there psalm was beautiful, real beautiful. Got to me 'eart, it did," he
said. "And I want to ask you a favour. Do you think you could come over to me peter
[cell] on A wing tomorrow night and say your piece over again? I got a couple of me best
mates it would mean a real lot to."
I may have looked a little anxious at the prospect of spending an evening in the company
of The Big Face and two of his closest associates. Sensing my hesitation, he enlarged
his invitation: "And Jonno, to make yourself feel comfortable, why don't you bring a
couple of your mates along with you? I mean, 'ow about bringing those geezers you said
liked the psalm so much - Augustus and wotsits, too, if they're friends of yours on B
wing."
Although I was unable to produce St Augustine, Calvin and Luther as my companions, Psalm
130 went down well second time round in The Big Face's cell.
My friends in our prayer or fellowship group, as it became known (by then about 20
strong), asked me to give a valedictory talk on Psalm 130 two weeks before my release
date. The event was advertised on various noticeboards. As a result, the attendance
swelled beyond the usual (Christian) suspects. Indeed, there was general astonishment
when, just before I got up to speak, we were joined in the prison chapel by no less a
personage than "The Big Face".
Here's Psalm 130, an indispensable ancillary to the story:
Out of the depths
have I cried unto thee, O LORD.
2 Lord, hear my voice: let thine
ears be attentive to the voice of
my supplications.
3 If thou, LORD, shouldest
mark iniquities, O Lord, who
shall stand?
4 But there is forgiveness with
thee, that thou mayest be
feared.
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul
doth wait, and in his word do I
hope.
6 My soul waiteth for the Lord
more than they that watch for
the morning: I say, more than
they that watch for the morning.
7 Let Israel hope in the LORD:
for with the LORD there is
mercy, and with him is
plenteous redemption.
8 And he shall redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.
Psalm 130:1 {A Song of
degrees.}
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